How does one get through this muddled mess? I have no idea, but I'm currently working my way through dozens of emails, applications, and the like just to find some glimmer of hope. The thing about it all is, the professors never really give you step by step instructions for what happens after you walk out of the classroom. And, honestly, how can they? You're supposed to figure it out. Isn't life supposed to be full of challenges you have to work through? They say you can't reach the top until you're ready to fall. So maybe, this is me falling, and all this paranoia and stomach upsetting rejection will lead me to something more. Here's to hoping.
Right now, I'm living with my sister in the mega tech Silicon Valley, loving the sunshine and trying to keep my head up. I don't know what the next few months will lead to, what decisions I'll choose, or who exactly will still be in my life at that point. I'm scared, I'm restless, but I'm ready.
